During my retreat (which I will talk about in another post eventually) last Thursday, I finally found out whether or not I passed the UPCAT. Unfortunately, there was no room for a Dominique Esguerra. My heart broke and the high hopes I had were crushed.
But oh well, c’est la vie. I guess one of the things I realized during that retreat is that passing or failing a college entrance test doesn’t define you. Yes, I was really hoping to get into my family’s (or at least most of my family’s) alma mater and yes, I really really really did want to play football for the Lady Maroons but hey, I still passed two other universities and so I really can’t complain.
We’re going to make an appeal to see if there’s a chance that I can get in still. However, now that I’m done waiting and checking and celebrating/crying over the results, I’m beginning to think twice about where I’m going to go from here.
I honestly did want to go to Ateneo as well. La Salle, too, but mostly (if not only) because I like the courses they offer and the course I passed.
See, if I make an appeal to UP Diliman and become successful in doing so, I’ll be incredibly happy. Then again, I’ll be incredibly scared as well. I will be honest here. I am not fluent at all in what is supposed to be my mother tongue but isn’t, Tagalog. Everyone warns me that I will struggle because I’m an Inglesera or however you spell it.
They tell me, not only will I struggle with academics because the professors do in fact teach in Filipino but I would also struggle socializing with my peers because not everyone who studies in UP comes from a background like mine.
I feel this is true to a certain point and I am not sure how I’m going to go about it once I get there.
If I’m not successful in getting into UP, I still have Ateneo as my second choice and it’s not a bad thing at all. Heck, when it comes to Ateneo, I don’t feel as scared as I am about UP. Yeah sure, college is college no matter where you go but I still have a sense of comfort knowing that I already know a few people already in as well as going to Ateneo. Not only that, I won’t suffer so much with my incapability of speaking in Tagalog.
As for La Salle. I just really like the course, okay. International freaking Studies. Howeeeever, I’m not really thinking much about going there. Although it wouldn’t be so bad either.
Ateneo or UP (if I manage to get in even after failing the UPCAT)? La Salle or UP (if I manage to get in even after failing the UPCAT)? Ateneo or La Salle?
I hate this.